:: Closing Time ::

:: Monday, September 23, 2002 ::

This is the Silence Blog. The name is prompted by an explaination for my current blogging silence, but I believe may lead to an extremely interesting piece of writing.

First, an explaination: why I haven't blogged with any substance in five days, and with any even close to real substance in almost a week. As many of you know, I never thought I would join a fraternity. The stereotype was so very much not me that I didn't even consider it - and yet, as I got to school, I got bombarded with rush invitations. And as I saw the frat guys give a palm card to -every- guy they saw, I suddenly realized that maybe the stereotype was wrong - maybe frats were interested in more than one type of person, and maybe they might be something I was interested in. So I went out, and although most of the frats I found were NOT new, revolutionary, or surprising to me, Beta Theta Pi was. To make the rest of the long story short, I rushed, and I got a bid, and I pledged.

Now the surface statement of the blog: fraternities have their stereotype because of the extremely secretive nature of what goes on behind their doors. I haven't blogged about anything interesting because outside of rush/pledge life, I haven't done much interesting in the last week - it's taken up my time. I am not allowed to tell anyone about my pledge process. This silence, this secrecy, is very very much against the openly honest stance I've taken over the last five months of blogging and conversation. I've been so comfortable with myself because I know I'm being honest with the people I care about, and now (barring one of my friends from home becoming a Beta as well) I've got this aspect of my life that I cannot discuss with any of you. Not my absolute closest friends, not my family. Only my new, additional family - my new brothers. I've got a part of my life I can't discuss with Sasha, can't discuss with Natalie, can't discuss with my mother, can't discuss with my sister. Can't joke around about with Matt, can't over analyze with Alex. Can't blog about with the world - all you "friends" who I'm ever so glad to have, because you're more people who know what and who I am -

ok I got interrupted. fuck. I had to hide my blog from somebody reading over my shoulder.

and now I lost my train of thought. fuck.
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:: Peter 11:43 PM [+] ::
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