:: Closing Time ::

:: Wednesday, August 21, 2002 ::

So Chira tends ot be very inspiring, blogwise, especially because he's incredibly unique, and general in positive ways. But I'm really curious how the moving on with life, and missing people, and nostalgia will be very different between us because of a critical factor: Effectively, I know no one where I'm going.

Yeah, I sorta know Josh, but I don't think we'll be good friends. And I know Melissa Matin-Shepherd's face.... and know that the last time I spoke to her more than once in a three month period, my best friends had a restraining order against her. I'm hoping if I see her or talk to her things will be better, but basically, I know no one.

That's going to force me to go forge new ways, make new connections. Most people have to do this. But, as far as I know, Chira has Sarah.

What would it be like to go to college.... with your girlfriend? I'm pretty sure they're still together. If they're not, I'm sorry I wrote this. But I think they are. What would it be like. To take with you one of the most significant relationships in your life. To NOT have to lose that. I think I would love it.... and it would cripple me. Because I'd lean on that relationship, and inevitiably destroy it unless we both went that way. I'm not worried about them - neither of them is like me in that aspect, I think.

But it's just an interesting thing to contemplate. Nostalgia is universal, but when he goes off in the next week or so, he takes one of the best parts of his life with him.

I leave everything behind.

Am I bitter or upset? Not at all. Because I don't think either way would be bad for me. It's just.... interesting.
:: Peter 2:11 AM [+] ::
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