:: Closing Time ::

:: Sunday, May 04, 2003 ::

FUCK. I just lost a long blog I wrote about my feelings right now. Which I now HAVE to try and rewrite because... it was important.

This is the closeout of a chapter of my life that I never saw coming. I'm done with Thurston, the myth, the legend, the absurdity, but a place that very quickly became home. And somehow, although I'm psyched about how nice our apartment next year will be, I ended up living as far from this situation as I possibly could have. In an upper class apartment building with amenities and standards, with non-students and random non-affiliates. Shit, with a commute to campus. Here I sit abusing the wattage on my stereo because music keeps me calm, and I'm really broken up. I've grown to love this place. I've grown to love these people. And I finally feel like part of this community. And suddenly.... it's over. Less than a week from today, I'll be home. And I'll likely never come to Thurston more than a dozen times after this, and it will never be the same.

God, I'm pissed. I wrote so much better before I lost it. Ugggggh

I'm excited about going home, about being able to see you all, about having 3 months off with virtually no commitments or responsibilities. I wish I didn't have the spotty schedule I do where I can't get a real job, but I want to talk to Gary and see if I can go back and get some time at Yog... hopefully I'll be able to work some hours, and reconnect with the community a bit. With the town. That place really does beat with the heart of the town.

Now I have to do something I haven't done in a long time.... connect with a song. A song I doubt any of you will know.


Breathe
Ever so soft
We wouldn't want to break the eggs as we walk
Never alone
Cautious, afraid
I hear the voice of reason on the PA
Leave it alone
Follow the grain
We couldn't stop the irresistable force
Leave it the same
Change with the wind
Bringing in the sheaves, bringing in the old
Leave it alone

Breathe
Ever so slight
We couldn't take away your God given right
Leave it alone
Heel and stay
Roll over and shake and beg for the bone
Leave it alone
:: Peter 7:57 PM [+] ::
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